i never thought it would affect me so much. the words just linger in my mouth but when i open it nothing comes out.
sometimes i dont even know what i cry for.
feeling like an idiot trying to hang on to something that is nothing.
i cant believe in anyone else, because i dont even believe in myself.
can i truly say that i tried?
1) being a cold fish. trust and hurt no one.
you dont understand, dont act like you do.
i have lost all my respect for you, if i had any in the first place.
2) Abstinence. Shit has no boundaries when it happens.
what do i study for. for you? for myself? future?
i dont know and i dont want to know.
i feel like throwing my future down the drain.
i'm only in a state of confusion. my thoughts will be clearer when my mind is.
and you wont have the chance to revel in my misery. i wont let you.
i ought to be stuck in the offline world.
